2018 has really sucked. I’ve been really struggling with wanting to end my life and I have been lacking positive people in my life. Up until the end of this year, I have felt completely alone and hopeless. I have finally now just started to meet positive and loving people. One of the hardest things I have ever done has been cutting toxic people out of my life. I have always said *insert toxic persons name*’s company is better than none. Boy was I wrong! When I am literally hanging half off a bridge I need people to make me feel wanted and loved- instead I have been made to feel like life is hopeless and will not get better. When you are literally on the edge do not tell people how much life sucks, please remind them of how good things can be. Being told how awful everything sucks puts you in such a bad place. For weeks after that, I felt completely empty. I still sometimes do. Self harming and suicide is still something I contemplate on a daily basis but I am actually still glad I am here. I am thankful for all the people who are still here through all their struggles. Please keep going and cut out those toxic people. Being alone is not being worse than being around negative people.
If anyone ever needs to talk, please message me!