It may be 4 a.m. as I write this, while taking a break from compulsively cleaning my washroom, but in comparison to the alternative that I’ve been longing for- this is a huge win for me. I’ve really been trying hard lately to not self harm. When something harmful, such as cutting, has been a crutch for you for so long it is so hard to just stop. I feel like I’m fighting every instinct in my brain and body to not hurt myself in some way. While there are lots of people who cannot comprehend the appeal of self harming, there is an alarming amount of people who can relate and understand. That is just heartbreaking to me. It is very difficult to step out of that mindset and contact or reach out to someone but I urge you to. There are so many people who care and who can help. I’m not saying that reaching out is easy but I know how rewarding it can be.
If anyone ever needs someone to talk to, please send me a message. You are not alone in this, no matter how much you believe that you are. Sometimes we all need other people and that is okay. I’m still coming to terms with that myself- getting help is okay. Please take what help you can get. You matter very much. ❤️