November 18
2018
The Bridge
A couple weeks ago I was completely and utterly done with life. I felt the way I usually do- hopeless, pathetic, lost, sad, defeated, tired and in pain. I had enough of it. I always try my best to want to be here on earth but it isn’t fun being somewhere that you honestly do […]
September 29
2018
Constant Struggle
Having both severe depression and anxiety is really exhausting. It’s a constant struggle between caring too much and not caring at all. I often retreat from social situations because of how hard it is for me to even try to make plans. I don’t like uncertainty. It makes me panicky. And if anything changes it’s […]
September 22
2018
I Harmed Myself Today
I harmed myself today. I almost made it two months without self harming. Why did I do it? I feel like a failure, a let down, I’m constantly overwhelmed, and I’m tired of feeling the regular hurt and pain I feel daily. I like the feel of this pain. It’s different, it’s something I can […]
September 10
2018
Today is World Suicide Prevention Day
Today is World Suicide Prevention Day. I’m going to be honest. I don’t want to be here anymore. I personally have been struggling with self harm and wanting to end my life. The thought is always in the back of my mind and when I’m asleep- I’m dreaming about it. It’s something I can’t seem […]
March 28
2018
The Storm Will Pass
I have been struggling a lot lately, More than usual. It’s hard for me to believe at times that it will pass or get better. Some days are obviously better than others, and some are way worse. Both can teach you different things. Sometimes you have glimpses of hope during the good days and the […]