Today is World Suicide Prevention Day. I’m going to be honest. I don’t want to be here anymore. I personally have been struggling with self harm and wanting to end my life. The thought is always in the back of my mind and when I’m asleep- I’m dreaming about it. It’s something I can’t seem to get away from-and that’s terrifying. I am always so worried that I am going to snap and that will be the end of me. It is exhausting. I don’t even know why I am here anymore. I am thankful to be here in this moment so that I can openly speak about this. (Even though I don’t do that enough.) I am trying very hard to find a purpose here and a will to live. I really do love helping others. I have more hopes and belief for others than I do myself. To anyone else out there who can relate to me; you are not alone in this and you do not have to tackle this alone. You are not crazy for the way you feel. With the experiences that I have been through it has been hard for me to believe that anyone else can understand completely but I have found so many others who have been through similar situations. It’s easier to talk to someone else who is going through the same thing.
If anyone ever wants someone to vent to or someone to just listen, please message me at any moment. There are so many helpful resources out there but they can be hard to find. If you need help finding resources for yourself or others send me a message so I can forward some along.