May 5
2019
Today Has Been One of My Worst Days in A While
Today has been one of my worst days in awhile… I genuinely am unhappy to be alive. I can’t find solace in anything. I am difficult to deal with and I know it but I can’t just switch it off. I am overwhelmed, panicked and uncomfortable 24/7. Today I just woke up hating everything, including […]
May 1
2019
Grounding & Grounding Kits
As someone who is still in the recovery process, I am always actively seeking new ways to cope. I struggle a lot with anxiety and feeling overwhelmed in public settings. I’ve talked before about grounding. It’s a technique used to help calm anxiety and bring you back into the moment. For those that may not […]
April 27
2019
Celebrate the Little Wins
I feel bad that I haven’t posted in awhile. I have been so overwhelmed lately. Just today I got so overwhelmed by a phone call that I cried several times throughout the duration of the call. I’ve been lacking the motivation to do anything lately. When I do summon enough energy to do anything at […]
April 2
2019
The Difference Between Happiness and Happy Moments
I definitely understand this. To me there is a huge difference between a happy moment and actually being happy. I’m a little over hearing people say, “you were happy when we did this or when this happened.” I am capable of feeling happiness in some moments yes, I am just incapable of actually being happy. […]
January 16
2019
A Prisoner in My Own Mind
I wish I knew what it was like to wake up and not want to kill myself. Even for a single day. I can escape the sweet solace of suicide calling for a few hours at a time, but at the end of the day, it’s still there. It’s comforting to think about not existing. […]
December 24
2018
Crisis Lines For the Holidays
The holidays can be especially tough. You are not alone in your struggle. You are never alone. No matter where you are, there are always places to reach out to help you through. Please do not hesitate to contact any of these numbers if you are struggling or in crisis. For more options, check out […]
December 24
2018
“Change the Way You Think”
How many other people get told that they just need to change the way they think? I think that is a very unfair statement. Depression is so much more than “how we think.” And if thinking differently was an easy thing to do, we all would do it. I try very hard to change the […]
December 21
2018
2018
2018 has really sucked. I’ve been really struggling with wanting to end my life and I have been lacking positive people in my life. Up until the end of this year, I have felt completely alone and hopeless. I have finally now just started to meet positive and loving people. One of the hardest things […]
December 11
2018
Fighting the Instinct to Self-Harm
It may be 4 a.m. as I write this, while taking a break from compulsively cleaning my washroom, but in comparison to the alternative that I’ve been longing for- this is a huge win for me. I’ve really been trying hard lately to not self harm. When something harmful, such as cutting, has been a […]
December 9
2018
Generalized Anxiety Disorder
Being a depressive with Generalized Anxiety Disorder often leads me to truly believe I am going mad. My thoughts never hush and trying to focus on a single thought or activity feels virtually impossible. Lately my brain has been more busy than usual. I am constantly overwhelmed to the point where death feels so inviting. […]