I feel bad that I haven’t posted in awhile. I have been so overwhelmed lately. Just today I got so overwhelmed by a phone call that I cried several times throughout the duration of the call. I’ve been lacking the motivation to do anything lately. When I do summon enough energy to do anything at all- I very easily get overwhelmed and I’m wiped for the rest of the day-sometimes the rest of the week. I used to be so tough that nothing seemed to get to me and now every little thing does.

I know I’m not the only one who experiences it but it’s very difficult to explain to others who don’t understand. Unless you experience it yourself- it’s hard to register being overwhelmed by even the little things. If you get overwhelmed sometimes, I just want you to know, what you are going through and feeling is completely okay and I’m here for you. It’s hard sometimes to feel like all your emotions are justified, but everything we experience is so very real and I’m proud of you for making it through the day.

We often are our own worst critics and we do not celebrate the little wins. I made a difficult phone call today and I just focused on the negative aspect because I got overwhelmed and cried on and off during and for about an hour after. I didn’t applaud myself for making this phone call which I knew wasn’t going to be easy and one that I’ve been putting off for weeks. It’s a small win but it’s still a win. Small wins add up to something bigger. What are some small wins this week you haven’t given yourself credit for? We all have to start somewhere and start being kinder to ourselves. You are here and you are surviving and I am so thankful for that. ❤️ 

If you ever need someone to talk to- please don’t hesitate to message me! My listening ears are always on and I have tons of resources I will gladly pass on to those who need them!

I definitely understand this. To me there is a huge difference between a happy moment and actually being happy. I’m a little over hearing people say, “you were happy when we did this or when this happened.” I am capable of feeling happiness in some moments yes, I am just incapable of actually being happy. It is something I am still working on but everyone seems to think that depression isn’t as bad as it is sometimes. Depression isn’t always something that can be seen. It’s hard to be taken seriously when you are considered to be “high-functioning.” It has taken me many years to get to this point where I don’t cry every time I enter a room, or where I can actually leave the house most days or even bed for that matter. High functioning depression and anxiety are such a real thing that no one talks about. I talk a lot about the days where I can’t get out of bed, eat or even talk, but I don’t always talk about the days I can go outside and get shit done while I still feel like there is a weight attached to me pulling me down and chipping away at me with every breathe I take.

No matter where you are in your journey, I am here for you. There are so many resources to help and so many people who care about you. Sometimes it’s hard to believe that, trust me-I know, but we really are our worst enemy. Please reach out to me anytime you need a listening ear. ❤️